I can really tell the birth control is getting to me. I overeat, which everyone else says is normal, but i call it binging. My boobs are getting bigger too... I just really want these pounds off but they're gonna freak if they notice im going ana again! uugughghg i HATE being so big! Ive put on at least ten pounds. I do not go anywhere near a scale... Seeing those numbers would make me cry and SI, surely, and who knows, induce a panic attack or something. I dont care if i sound pitiful, i fucking dont like being fat, okay? You guys understand that, i know you do.
Today i ate some toast for breakfast.. Some noodles for lunch.. Some popcorn for a snack.. Tofu & Broccoli for dinner. Now if i can stop for the night i wont totally hate myself. I feel like a fatass already. I've gotta pump up my workout regime. I dont wanna run outside since its summer, its in the nineties with high humidity in Louisiana =( i'll figure something out. I will not start tomorrow. I start now, every moment is a beginning. I will not fail, because all it takes is determination. ive done this before, my waistline shrunk beautifully... i want that back!
anyway, im just sick today, walking around in my pjs with nothing to do, feeling shitty from my meds. i got bumped up to 1000mg so my body's adjusting.. wooo. and my boyfriend's out of town. sigh.
fucking depressed as hell. but i still love you all.
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I noticed you are following my blog so I will follow yours! I feel f*****g fat too! I have binged for three days straight now...I just want to loose it all. The only thing keeping my from totally falling apart right now is knowing that with all the work, swimming, and now a trampling, and soon Wii fit, it will take no time at all to loose what I have gained. But I feel for you. Just try to stay at a healthy weight, whatever you do.
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Yeah, i totally understand. Since its summer there's more time for me to focus on getting fit.. thanks girl
ReplyDeletehope you're feeling better.
ReplyDeletehey, i can totally relate to this post.
ReplyDeletebirth control has made me overeat like crazy and yeah i too have put on 10 lbs and before this i was 5 lbs away from one of my ugw.
i was so pissed. im not solely blaming birth control though... i just cant shift this weight.
hope youre okay.
xoxo