worry worry

oh my god. i havent felt hunger pains like this in so long. its a hard hill to get over at first. but its easier the second time around

im doing really good though, i've already lost four pounds


constant anxiety.... I have so much homework and studying, but i don't have the concentration for it. My mind just goes blank. I just sit there, drinking diet drinks and cringing every time my stomach cries out. there's nothing in my brain. they don't understand that.

 i've had more to eat today than the rest of this week - i had an 80 calorie whole grain waffle for breakfast. i had a lot of animal crackers for lunch =/ and i had a banana which made me really sick... now im trying to drink some hot egg soup but it's not working out very well.

this is hard.. but it's worth it.